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Wednesday, February 24, 2010

D ONLY THING DAT I CAN DO IS CRYING.

i just cant stop
my tears from falling down.
eu such a very nice guy
when first i talked to eu.
but now, eu've changed.

i've bravely and willing
to open my heart to someone new
dat is eu.
but, eu just dont even care.
maybe its an achievement
when eu able to make
me fall in love wif eu.
IDK wad eu want.
im REGRET bcause
i allow my heart to LOVE eu.
im REGRET.
hate it!

there's only TEARS dat can translate how i feel ryte NOW.
im afraid dat i would do somthing stupid.
so dat , i can able to forget all tis .

TO MUHAMMAD SAIFULLAH B RAMIJAN ,
thankss foe make me feel tis way!
APPRECIATE it SO MUCH.
thankyou SO MUCH foe
all tis BULLSHIT.

)':




Tuesday, February 23, 2010

WAD DO EU DO WHEN D ONLY WHO CN MAKE EU STOP CRYING IS D ONE WHO MADE EU CRY . ?


i dont know why i did tis
.
i love hym
mybe bcause im extremely love hym,

and make me come
wif tis
stupid decision.
but, somehow,
i think
we could be better
in just friend.

having a SPECIAL one ,
but, nver feel dat way,
and nver feel SPECIAL.
dats how i feel.
foe hym,
mybe he think
i've changed.
but nope.

at first i met hym,
oke, he was OKAE ,
being abit sweet .
but not so swit.
but yeah .,
its oke wif me ,

bcause, it just a beginning.
so, i dont wanna put
a high hope .

so , i let it be dat way .

but, it continously bcome worse.

IDK , i've been left,

i mean , im not so important la.

idk .
my lyfe , could sayy dat ,

its SUXX.
why must i felt tis way?

and yeahh .,
i dont wanna b
WORSE than now
.
but, its lyke FORCE me to.
somtymes, i hate tis lyfe.
LOVE, FAMILY, MONEY, FREEDOM !

pfffffttt
why i cant
get A LYFE!

its EFF man!
FOE HYM ;;
eu said
, eu couldn't stand

to see my heart broken..

so when eu broke it,
Did eu close ur eyes ?
*tearss . crying ~


urLOVER, ezra!

Monday, February 22, 2010

):

it HURT me inside .
im feel lyke wanna
kill myself .
SUICIDE.
EFF.
why shud i felt tis way .
i have to rid of it.
i have to forget bout it .
i dont have to care bout it anymore.
but WHY?
i CANT.
i still want it.
IM SO STUPID FOE LET MYSELF
BE LYKE WAD I AM NOW.
why i cant ?
why im so weak of it.
why??
i hate tis feeling.
I HATE IT .
FUCKKKK ~

Saturday, February 20, 2010

how i wish eu know how i feel .

FOE HYM:

baby,
bfore tis,
i only would CRY
bcause im breaking off wif someone,
bcause i've been hurt.
but,
when im wif eu,
tis is d very 1st tyme
im crying bcause
im missing someone..

eu dont know
how i miss eu bie.
and dere's no werd
dat cn translate
how i miss eu.
and tis is d very 1st tyme
im lyke gving up
in a long-distance relationship.
and hence,
eu were just lyke dont even care
how HARD, how BAD my feelings
when im missing eu lyke
EFFing damn much.

im CRYING bcause of eu bie ,
BECAUSE OF YOU !!

i want eu to appreciate my love bie.

if eu cn mit ur fren,
WHY eu CANT mit me ?
its not dat
im control'ing ur social lyfe
wif ur fren.
it just , im ur GF, ur matae.
make me feel SPECIAL pleasee !

and wad makes eu so hard
to tpp ur pp8 and call me
lyke eu used to bfore ?
ur money is more important
than ME ?
WHO AM I TO EU ?
same lyke ur other FRENS?
or mybe not even can compare them.
im not saying dat
im not understand
how ur lyfe ,
but, makes me feel lyke
im SOMEONE to eu.
im dissapointed on eu.
IM SORRY.

i dont know
wad shud i say, wad shud i do, wad shud i feel.
IM LOST.
im feel lyke giving up.
pls bie,
i dont wanna feel tis wayy.

btw, im SORRY.
im just speak out my feelings.
im SORRY.
my bad foe not understand eu.
and im sorry
bcause i cant be ur BEST'est GF
dat eu ever had.
sorry foe dat .
)":


byeBYE foe now!
*WAVING HAND wif sadFACE.
! ezranadea !


Thursday, February 18, 2010

bloggyFOEtodayy

heyyheyy peeps !
oke, todayy abit boring !
just staying at home .
watching DVDs .
horror movies .

1st DVD is bout reality laa kan .
idk either its foe real
or just making story
foe make money !
the title is WUJUD
.
which is , its sumthing lyke PARANORMAL activities ,
hunting foe Ghost!
most of d story,
can sayy is a crap la kan
.
FAKE FAKE FAKE .
haiyyya .. then , get bored of it .
CHANGE another DVD .

another paranormal activities .
but tis tyme is from HongKong .
they go to Thailand and oso Ipoh,Malaysia!

hunting foe things dat is abnormal laa kan .
GHOST.
and , tis is truely SCARY and DISGUSTING.

euuuww !

d scariest thingss is
, when they playing
something lyke 'SPIRIT OF D COIN'
and , d spirit 'mengamok' and haunted all players
.
and its foe REAL

.
disgusting things is
when they went to shaman ( bomoh ) place
.
this place is d place dat most of d prostitute
come to make them LAKU
.
idk wads dat in english laa kan
.
my english is so poor ..
hahaha .. oke , continue ..
and , d shaman place is called
'GOD OF PENIS'
oke shuddapp ..,
close ur mouth lahh liaoo ..

hahah .. oke RANDOM !

its somethings
lyke eu PUJA bedek peh PENIS tau ..

so , its so disgusting !!

and , d prostitute have to be naked
.
i mean those werd NAKED
.
and the shaman doin d ceremony
kirekan 95% of d ceremony is using d bedek peh PENIS
.
euww .. and d cb'iest things is
,
d shaman fucked d fake PENIS
into
dat prostitute thingss laa kan
..
hahah .. oke STOP !
disgusting .


and yeah .
dats all i think .. ~
now , im doin ntg AGAIN .
just blogging !

oke
dats ol foe now .

byeBYE , * WAVING HAND
ezranadea ~













Wednesday, February 17, 2010

OKE heyy .. !


well ., todae got ntg to do .
so yeahh .. BLOG'ing again !
hahaha ..

todae is just lyke any other normal dae .
mendakk ! doin ntg at home .

hmm .,
bout my baby.
just now , aku picet dier ,.
saying bot our relationship laa kan.
bout smthing !
and , dier tros call aku siaa .. ~
swit kepe jantan aku .
hahaha ..
bie , aku syg kao laa ..~
he sayd dat he love me and etc.
dont hv to know laa kan ..
hahaha .. ~

and yeah , wif wad dat he told me ,
make me love hym and TRUST hym .
in evry relationship ,
we owes have to TRUST he/her !
foe dat , i trust hym.
and i do love hym.

to hym :
i want eu to know
dat i want eu to be ere wif me .
hold me tight !
bcause , im addicted to ur love b !
thankss baby foe being dere ,
anytyme dat i want eu to !
hee (:

haha .. sorry frenz .. being so JIWANGS.
so wad !!
hahaha .. oke aku STEP !
haha .. ~
oke laa ..,
dats ol FOE NOW .

byeBYE , * WAVING HAND
ezranadea!

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

GunungLedang - memories .

ere d close up foe hym.
Meet tis guy , he's Endy .. my ex laa kan ..
He's my aunt peh adek ipar ..
so lyke , our relationship is abit complicated ..
and yeah , he's one of my LOVE laa kann ..
till when ? idk ehh .. complicated to tell ..
and yeahh , i miss those moments
when we (me and Nd) treasure Gunung Ledang tgther..
funn .. he got so many knowledges
bout d plants, and evrythings bout nature .
im impressed ! haha .. (:
hahaha .. pose step tis Gunung Ledang dier peh ehh ..
hahah .. (:
but yeah, love tis pics .
love d wonderful views of it .
well , IM THE ONE WHO TOOK TIS PICS ..
oke so TAKPERLU ..
hahah ..
credits to ENDY foe taking tis pics .
love d views lahh liaoo .
HANG BUAH not hang tuah ehh ..
hahaha(:
tis is d title dat i gave to hym.
ryte after my aunt took tis pics .
step hang tuah sia ..
saappp , skalii kena HANG BUAH .
jangan marahh ehh ABG BOYY ..
hahah ..
SMILE (:

im very in love wif tis pic ..
MEMORIES sia ..
how i wish i can make hym b mine AGAIN .
aiiyyya .. but , nvm .. he'll be my beloved brother laa kn .
oke FAKE .
i still love hym laa wayy .
but yeah ..
ntg dat i can do wif it .
):
d loving couple .
hope ur marriage will last long haa .
MAKSU and ABG BOY (pakcu)
hahah .(:
p/s : dont owes yelling at each other luhh wayy .. be nice to each other haa .. she's ur wyfe , he's ur husband.! take note haa my beloved aunt and uncle .
evryone's tired .. haha (:
and im snap'ing pics of them .
my aunt showing her butt ..
aiyya ~ hee (:

d starting of d journey .
my aunt, hahah , semangat !
but then , half way dh surrender ..
to her : after tis kite daki gunung laen ehh .. having fun lagikk ..
hee (: always do miss those momentss luhh wayy !
hmm .. d thingss dat i wanna share about is can sayy , almost ALL , is about Endy.
i know dat i shouldn't talk , write abot hym since im attached .
but , tis is just a story of my life.
and yeah , Endy is so called , d one dat i love d most laa kan ..
and yeah, i admit dat im still .
he? idk !
and all d tyme dat we've spent on tis trip ,
makes me want hym back.
but, i know dat he dont want it !
and yeah .
i have to let he GO ..
If you LOVE someone set them FREE.
If they RETURN to you, they are YOURS FOREVER.
If not, they were NEVER MEANT to be YOURS
in the first place.

thats wad i stand foe !
but , i do love my life now .
wif Apul .
but , sometymes , thingss not alwayss be good and perfect .
so do me and hym .
idk how long do our relationship will last foe .
and i just let it flow by itself .
IDK .
hate to write tis , but , im more to Nd ryte now .
SUXX!
foe myBaby Apul,
dont worry okae syg.
i will owes b wif eu.
as long as eu want me to.
and yeah., just let we do our best in relationship okae .
bcause , im sick of LOVEs gamesss .
whatever it is,
lyfe must go on
either we love it or not.
dats all foe now .
byebye ol , WAVING HAND ~
ezra!






Saturday, February 13, 2010

VALENTINE's DAY + CNY celebration !

okey , firstly .. tis VALENTINE's DAY , im celebrating without my baby ):
aiseyyy .. he's got his sore eyes and its quite bad .. kesian ehh my baby ..
* wish eu get well soon .. ! LOVEYOU anw .. ~ hee (:
and , bcause of dat , dere's no DATE foe us on tis VALENTINE's DAY ):
im gonna cry lyke a lil baby .. huhuh )'':
i miss my baby so muchh luhh liao . ~

BUT..
hee (:

i got another plan .. wif my aunt .
we're gg to GUNUNG LEDANG ..
we're gonna reach to d top of dat mountain .. yeayy ..
and i wanna be PUTERI GUNUNG LEDANG foe a while .. oke aku merepekk .. LOLX .. ~
so yeahh , d plan is we're gg to my uncle's kampong 1st ,
den , go eat SATE at MUAR.
then , straight to G.LEDANG .. and BBQ'ing dere .. ~

BUT ..
(brape byk nk 'BUT' dahh .. )

dere's never be d same without my baby laa kann ..
i still want my baby ..
i think i wanna gv hym suprise laa .. hee (:
when i back from G.LEDANG , i wanna go straight to hys house and wanna suprise hym ..
how bout dat ??
hee (: sweet kan aku .. hahaha .. ~
well , wanna gv d best foe d best (mybaby)
and yeahh ., i miss evry single things bout hym lahh liaoo ..~

FOR HYM :
. 28012010 , 1452hr .
d tyme dat we're not gonna forget ryte bie ..
and yeahh , i wanna b ur best girlfy dat eu ever had .
i want eu to b my last one .
and yeahh ., foe me , eu're diff and eu're so special .
dere's no need to gv a reason why i love you bcause , its all about eu !
hee (:
i will b dere as long as eu want me to .
and thankss foe being dere when i need eu bie .
my lyfe could not b d same without eu in my life ..
i love my life bcause dere's eu.
eu will owes be my baby -

MUHAMMAD SAIFULLAH BIN RAMIJAN .
I LOVE YOU