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Sunday, May 30, 2010

i admit !


i admit dat i love eu .
but, sometimes , i think i shud just not saying those words
dat is LOVE .
bcs sometimes , mybe i think , me myself , dun even know wad LOVE means .
idk .
and yeahh .. i LIKE eu .
and i want eu to be mine .
but, as eu know, i would be away from eu.
and, it might be hard for both of us .
bcs of dat,
i decided to just hold my feelings .
and i think eu deserves someone else .
someone else dat cn make eu happy .
happier whenever eu're wif me .
frankly speaking, i dun even see our future tgther .
=.=



its hard for me to say LOVE anymore.
and evrytime guys said I LOVE YOU ,
i just sigh'ing =.=''
its hard for me to believe in guy's word.
it takes time for me to believe in guys again .
mybe i cn easily fall in love wif guys,
but., im not dat type of girl dat eu cn simply be fooled .
guys sometimes, not all of guys , but most of it,
always take us ( girls ) for granted .
MAY I KNOW WHYE ?
huhhh .. if only guys cn gv me an honest answ !
you might see me SMILING, LAUGHING ,
but, deeply inside my heart, do peoples know ?
its a big NO !
=.=''




! LOVE !
might be a simplest word to say !
but the hardest word to explore the meanings .
and the word dat cn make us HAPPY .
and the word dat cn make us HURT .
the word dat cn make people hate each other .
the word dat cn kills many lives .
and etc.
dats the power of LOVE word !

haix
=.=''

*signing OUT !

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

sadness !

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dilema cinta by ungu !

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very meaningful for me .
haix .
if only he know how i feel .. ~
its true dat girls' tear r expensive .
but, i cant stop it !
it just come evrytime i think of it !



shit happen !


whye eu did tis to me ?
convince me bout ur love twards me ,
then , when im falling in love wif eu ,
eu just walk away ,
and just ignore me !

im trying so hard not to fall in love anymore ,
but , eu convince me wif ur words .
whyee i shud trust eu ?
sedangkan , eu never tell me the truth !
im regret of knowing eu .
if i know tis is wad dat probably happen ,
i wont say those LOVE words to eu .
bcause eu never appreciate it .
i told eu , dat my weakness is easily falling in love ,
and eu just said , its okae , bcs i love eu too !
just hush okae ?
eu will never mean evrything eu said to me ~
lying is ur NUMERO UNO !
haix .

whyee i always feel this way ?
is dere anybody dat TRULY and HONESTLY loving me ?
haix !
how i wish MUSLIM could allow SUICIDE .
siak ~
im lost ryte now when im thinking bout myself .
im toooooo stupid foe believing him .
and yeah , eu're sooooooo KNNBCB when eu cn easily lying to me and make me fall for eu .


congrats to eu .
just take note ,
wad goes arnd comes arnd !

*fadeup of tis lyfe !

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Thursday, May 20, 2010

just updating blog (:


^^^
gaining weight ! haixx . better go exercise and diet !
nvm . i still love d way i am ~
HAHA ..

well, yest went to dance prac at RP .
so muchh fun !
seriouslyy .
dunno whyee , but i feel lyke superb HAPPY .
and even dat day im in very goodmood .
first ,
i got moneyy to spent .
second ,
we ( our dance crew ) celebrating Sya's bday ! BASH .
HAHA .
and so muchh fun !
third ,
dun feel awkward anymore in crew .
and feel lyke already know them long time ago.
HAPPY.
and fourth ,
mama understanding my passion in dance ,. YEAY !

me and ice !
HAHA ..
make the crazy thingss .
mepek pew .
stated at FB dat we're in a relationship,
relationship as in MATAE .
haha ..
kekek siaa ICE .
ice start the thingss , when ,
got this app at FB dat ask us so much qn .
and one of it dat hv been qn'ed to ice is.,
wad she would say to ME, if she know dat she could never speak to me again .
the answer is I Love U . HAHA .
ice mepek ~
then , we both start to mepek !
and ATT !
its lyke PRANGAI siol ..
but then , yea ,.. its FUN !
haha ..

hmm , very tired leii ~
yest sleep at 3am !
haix ~
then , nari ice ajak me lepak at jurong , i said im tired .
so cant lepak wif them ~

nvm , next wed will meet eu oll kae . ~

miss all critikaluciousbeatz crew !
muahmuahmuah .~

bbye!

*signing out


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Saturday, May 15, 2010

eu're such a JERK .


eventhough eu cheated on me ,
i dunno whye im still loving eu .
foe me ,
ur love is still the best !
thankss foe come in myfe even it just foe awhile .
THANKYOU SO MUCH !
even i cried so many times ,
eu will never be mine AGAIN !
bcause eu're already happy wif her .
eu keep on saying dat i have other guy ,
but, see , im still single and dun even DATING wif anybody.
but eu ?
eu dh pon MATAE wif her .
anyhow , i'll pray the best for eu and her .

keep in ur MIND that i 'll always LOVE eu .
i hope eu WONT REGRET of wad eu've done now .

BEHIND EVERY STRONG GIRLS DERE'S AN ASSHOLE WHO MADE HER DAT WAY
and dat ASSHOLE is YOU .
AND ONE DAY YOUR NAME JUST DIDN'T MAKE ME SMILE ANYMORE !
eu're such a JERK .!


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Tuesday, May 11, 2010

secret.admirer?

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yest was otp wif YAT.
my frens laa, we're knowing each other thru TAGGED .
being frens since dec 09 if im not mistaken .
nahhh , nvm bout dat .
and yeah , he rarely call me .
so yeah , rarely otp .
but we never meet up bfore .
HAHA

so yest,
he confessed his feelings ,
at first he is like malu2 gytu nk ckp .
abeh mcm hiding somthing ,
so i was like curious to know,
ape siaa ? just tell laa kann ..
abeh dier tros bilang ,
" i suke eu "
HAHA .
i was otp wif him, abeh bile dier bilang gytu,
then i was like , ???
speechless oii !
tak sangka laa kan ..
we're being frens bout 6months,
abeh bilang dier suka aku ,.
HAHA .
okaelaa . i neva said anything ,
bcause foe me , im used to b fren wif him.
and furthermore,
i'll be going to stdy in next month .
so, dowanna hv any r/s foe now .
(:

so yeah ,
to YAT, if eu read tis ,
we're be just fren oke ?
I LIKE EU TOO !
like ur personalityy ,,!
cn sayy like eu more to frens .
takenote*


bbyeOLL .

*signingout ~

Thursday, May 6, 2010

thinking ~

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yest cant sleep ! fikiran about someone .
someone dat saying he will wait foe me no matter wad .
see his profile and see his status, and dere's " my heart get stolen "
hmm .. happy foe him ... but yeah , deeply, NOPE !
i cant sleep when i think back bout our memories .
talking , smiling , talking crappy thinggs , argue'ing , irrits one anther ..
haixx . i miss those moments .

things dat make us separate and start far from each other is when im att .
yeah, i know dat i love him more . but, when he always like gv me excuses ,
when i ask him to show me the proves dat eu love me .
then , he said , WAIT WAIT WAIT and WAIT !
and, from dat i know dat he's not being serious wif me .
and i decided to choose another guy dat wanna stead wif me .

and yeah, after dat baru kao nk dtg kat aquhh,
and ask me to leave my BF, bcause eu want me .
i refused to . bcause i love my BF .
but now, im sgle ..
where are eu ??
GONE wif ur new LOVE ?
=.=''

whatever it is , i hope eu'll find ur happiness wif her .
i wish eu all d best and goodluck .
i know who i am foe eu .
im NOBODY compare to her in ur heart ryte ?
(:
noproblem yaw .

*smiling lyke dere's ntg happen ,
laughing to hide my sadness ,
dancing to forget bout anything .,
DRINK ? dont make me done dat .
siakkk .. wad i was thinking .. ~

DONE !
*signing out ~

dancePRAC!

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gotta do something to release my tension.
to forget all my probs foe awhile .
so i decided to go dance prac .
pat republic poly.
so, i went dere yestt .

foe e 1st tyme mit critikaluciousbeatz.
but, not all of them laa .
certain peeps only.

having so much fun wif them laa .
they're FUN peeps .
but yeah , tis is my first tyme,
dancing hiphop!
KEKOK peww ..! dats wad muzyy said uh
okelaa . nvm !
first tyme pew, memg laa ..
so, cant aspect more laa ryte ?

but yeahh ,
look forward to meet them again nextweek
(:

they are soo nice and friendly.

*LOVEIT ~

signingout!

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

)'':

=.=

if only he know how i feel ryte NOW .
i miss him , i love him .
i miss his voice , his manje'ness .
siak
what have i done ?
im extremely love him .,
but then , i ask foe break up ?
haix .
my fault
patch ?
dunno leii ..
my ego'ness makes me said " NO WAY "
deeply inside my heart ,
i want him BACK !

if only he cn know how much i love him .
im soo stupid foe let him go .
but, im stupid too if im still dere , wif him .,
while he's gg out wif other gerls
and neva tell me !
dunno .
confused wif tis feelingss .

i alwayss see my phone and check
is dere any text or call from him ?
then , NOPE !
haix .
i miss his name appeared on my phone .!
hmm .. ~

im not point out his wrong ,
i know its all my FAULT .
my fault
haixx
):

other probs is ,
JOB!
i need to find a job ASAP !
only have 2 monthss .
after dat gone to univ . STUDY ..
hmm ~
where cn i get money to lighten up my parents' burden
especially my mom .

MAMA ..
dat tyme she sayy ,
" lepas ni , mesti mama boring, awak takde nk teman mama jalan2 , pegy pasar . tis house could be ntg without ur noisyy voice singing and yelling . "
and , ryte after then , i look at mum's face , PINK .
about to cry !
its hard foe me to leave her .
i love MAMA so muchh ..
i wish i no need to go . but, i hv to !

haix
its complicated .
lyfe is so complicated ~

):

*signing out ~

Monday, May 3, 2010

the end !

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between me and Apiz ,
dere's nomore Us .
dere's ONLY ME .

080310 - 020510

lost in r/s AGAIN huhh ?
siakk .

nvm !
dowanna have any r/s foe now
bcause i got to further stdy .
univ ..
so , i cant even commit in r/s .
bcause i have to stdy hard
and mybe if im att ,
it will be hard
and cant meet him .
once in 6months
siakk ,,..
cannot leii

good foe Apiz too .
mybe im just burden foe him.
he have to call me ,
he's in Spore , im JB .
if he gotta call , international call .
rabak pehh dye peyhh bill nnti ..

and , he will no longer have to call me,
and payy bill yg melambong lagikk after tis.
and he will not suffer foe not meeting me foe monthss .

its foe our own good laa .

hmm ..
thinking of him
but yeahh , ntg more dat i can do .

im asking foe breakup wif him 2days back.
bcause of some reasons .
no need to elaborate more .
and yeahh .
dats the best i think .

.....


*signing out !